"It's ok for the cup to be half empty sometimes...because sometimes is just IS. "
Yup, that about sums it up.
We're back to the crappy stuff--I've fired more people than I've hired. I was told I need to be more "understanding" that one of the people who works for us "needs to be needed" and I should be ok with that. This conversation was after I told said employee I can't accept gifts (he was trying to give me a Subway gift card and asking me to lunch). I'm not comfortable with it--and I was told that I was cold because of that. So, I guess that's me. Cold.
P. is back to the text messages and asking me to dinner. Wise advice was to say no and not feel guilty. Easier said than done (the not feeling guilty part).
I will NEVER EVER get caught up on bills. I got paid today and I'm already behind.
This is the worst part of being a single parent.....how the hell am I going to support 3 kids on what I make? And pay off old bills. And save money. I'm trying to think of a job I can get just on Wednesday nights when the kids are with P.
That brings up the ugly issue of time, which, like money, there is never enough of. I don't have time to work all day, take care of the kiddos, keep the paperwork done, keep track of all the kids' school stuff.....not to even mention doing anything fun like coffee with friends or scrapping.
Glass half empty. I am still reminding myself that the half-full part is pretty damn good. Kids are amazing and healthy and happy. The house is warm. I have a job to complain about. But still there's that other half of the glass to work on filling. And I just can't shake the feeling that I'll never, ever, get it as full as I want it.
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Time is not always our friend, but with it you'll pick a rhythm that you can live with. Don't forget that it is ok, to ask for help, nothing says it has all be done. There are many who care about you and you just have to ask and we'll be right there.
you do not have to be half full!!! that is just not realistic!
at some point things are going to start getting easier!
First of all: thank you.
Second: Yep, I'm feelin' you. It's like your glass is half empty, and you're drowning in the half you've got...rather than enjoying a good bubbly. (Which by the way, wine, always only poured half full.) (I'm a dork! haha)Don't you wish there was a one time "clean slate" for bills? Where once, in your lifetime, when things start to pull you under, all your debts would be paid off? Man...that would be nice. Just hold on to; "This too shall pass."
I don't have any good words for ya Lisa, except I bought a powerball and I will share if I win :)
I hope your glass gets half full soon! I hear ya about bills, its never ending.
Oh Lisa! I'm sorry things are so hard now.
Lisa, My bible verse today was:
Do not weary yourself to gain wealth, Cease from your consideration [of it.] Proverbs 23:4 -- Trust that you are where you are for a reason and He will provide. You've made some great life decisions, I think -- and you are doing great to see blessings among the tough times.
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